New Thoughts

kay kay ppl! i'm atrating another blogg later. YAY! o wait there is no one to celebrate with cause no one is reading this!! XD silly me. :P

haha so i'm bored and i forgot my notebook at home so i have nothing to write. wow thats lame! i need a life!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay so i'll just make a list of things i want right now! XD

1.) A FREAKIN CAR PPL! hopefully a punchbuggy convertable in a bright pruple.

2.)maybe a boy friends who loves me.....maybe not. i.d.c

3.) to go far far away from frankfort, NY

4.) my life/ the world to make sence finally.

5.) i want poeple to say what they mean and stand by it.

6.) i want a really big smoothie! berry flavored babay!

7.) a hugg, i kinda feel like crying : (

8.) TEXTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Now a list of my Goals in life:

1.) Go to Northwestern University

2.) Move out asap.

3.) Become a successful writer of some kind....most likely fiction.

4.) Study forensic Anthoropology.

5.) Be successful in life and never need help.

6.) Travel the world and write my books.

7.) Fall in love and be happy XD

8.) Take chances and live life to the fullest.

Now a list of fears:

1.) CLOWNS! they scare the shit out of me!!!

2.) Snakes EWWWWWW!

3.) Spiders *see above*

4.) White Jeeps (i was hit by one)

5.) The nissan comercials where the ppl become the earth, water, sky etc....its just NOT NATURAL!!!

okay i'm done now lol ttus!
X0X0X0X0X0,

~♥Em♥~

an excerpt from my diary......

hey ppl hayy!

for something new i thought i would copy a section from my diary.

here it is:

July 16th, 2009

i am s confused and uncertain.......

my thoughts are skattered like dragon flies on the lake's surface, drifting and always darting too and fro.

Jumbeled together like the pieces of a puzzel still in the box, not yet pieced together.

Broken like my poor soul, tatterd and bruised.

They all say the same words, yet i fear some say them in jest or with the emptiness of the air we breath.

*One claims to love although he rejects the strange and new. He is also a coward and a lier.

* Anther claims to love yet will not show me any affection where sightful eyes may peer.

*and the last claimed to posses a love but can only love what he sees and can control, not what is really there.

i know they all "love" in their own way, but their minds are corsetted by their failured, limitations, and lack of balance.

Two of them flaw & error in worse ways than what i've scripted. Yet th one left out of that group is oddly the one of late, i have come to love.

If the first man cannot love me for who i am and am not, then i myself cannot live my life to the extent of its boundaries.

and if the third man has to control me in order to preserve a balance, i cnnot remain serene and civil for long.

By mayhapps if that second man could brave the foul opinions of others, and show me how he really feels, than what we both know we have could grow into something real.

Back Again........

Hayyy Heyyy!

I'm Back again! And this time summer is kickin ass! If i mentioned that i hated summer before.....well i'm taking it back!!! Summer freakin rox!!!!!

I just got back from camping in the finger lakes with my family. My friend Manda went with us and we had a BLAST!! We met up with my mum's best friend and her family. I finally got to meet my god-brother who is totally awesome and his younger brother (who's name will be Chace). Anyway he's so totally cute and we had a thing going while we were there.Unfourtunatly he live 6 hours away but i will still get to see him when ever we get together. I guess thats better than not at all. XD

We had an awesome time and i cried when we left. like i litterly CRIED A RIVER. Which is really unlike me, just for the record. But yeah. So i love, and am over the other 3 guys i've mentioned on here.

I guess i Really LOVE him. But......

Caio For Now!

XOXOXO

~♥EM♥~